Worldly

Eyes closed
Mind exposed
Press delete on my inner defeat
Wondering down the passages to home
Escaping the real world unknown
Twist and Turn
My body wonders
Aching for our souls encounter
A dream
A nightmare
A pleasant awaken
The only outcomes I have seen this evening
Silver lining
Gold flakes
Continuing to drown
Sunbathe
I love you so much
The world already knows
Your love for me is twisted
Scared for the unknown
Excuses
Plans
Failing once more
I only knew I loved you
But you were waiting at the door

Supernovae

You think you can look at me
With those piercing eyes
And for one second
I won't fake a smile
You already disassembled my code
Undressed me from head to toe
Will i fit into your box
Shiny Enough
Scuff it up
I tend to play in the dirt
Washing my hands
Leaving the hurt
This mess won't be easy to hide
Coming and going
The moons
The tide
Just like a star
I'll shine after exploding
Leaving reminiscence of your scar tissue
Light light
Ignite
I can't contain it
Gauze and tape
Ideal burn kit
I hope you enjoy the warmth
It's the last evening 
Fully living
Without the thought of me etched in

Destructive

I felt you engulf my heart
Spitting it out
All over the walls
I felt you break apart my bones
Wearing them as a crown
On your damaged throne
I felt you cut out my tongue
Permanently speaking in a softer tone
How many more things can you change
To make me the perfect fit
Mutilating my entire being
Still won't fill the void you are constantly seeking

Social Media

I am surrounded by this fake world
People hoping a stranger will make them feel adequate
Looking for acceptance through the amount of followers
Partying to participate with the socialites
No one truly gets it
You think the internet runs your show
Imagine if it was removed
How much loyalty would the world have with you
Imagine if this platform didn't exist
Could you continue to live with yourself
Im sorry to say 
Most of you would lose your way
Not knowing what is trending
Or what the latest people are saying
You would have to focus on reality
Actually living the way you so falsely claim
Not able to grasp these pointless conversations
Trapped
Fake
What a ridiculous world
Where likes seem to validate 
So much toxicity flowing through
We scroll through our feed
Drinking it up like a warm cup of tea
Depression heightened
Always upset
The girls who bases their worth off a stupid comment
Do you even see it?
Can you even recognize it
Or are you so brain washed by the current situations
That your world is over by a loss of 10,000
Fraud
Judgement
Most won't talk to you if you can't give them something
Give me a shout out
Talk real talk
Oh thats right you don't really give a fuck
Looking to boost your own morale
Just imagine a world 
Where the internet didn't work
Would your life still matter
Or would it be as unimportant 
As the selfie you posted
With a long quote about how kindness helps the world
Yet you are body shaming another girl

Spider Bite

Forever I know this feeling

The feeling of loneliness

Uncontrollable emptiness

No matter how much love I feel

Inside is still a cobweb of misery

Is that what a spiders bite feels like?

The poison of lies and despair

Are you my black widow in human form

Can you unravel me from your current web

Your darkness is too familiar

It helps me dig deep inside my darkest corners

The depth of your breath

The excitement of your grip

Will the lights turn out themselves

As the candle drips its last bit of wax

Our flame soon burning out

Matching black nails

Disaster in our fairy tale

No wonder I can't seem to get to sleep

I am not sleeping beauty

My prince isn't showing up

My face turns blue

My bruises are black

Your beating heart fades

The rhythm of our existence

Falling deep into this pit of darkness

Closed in my coffin

Buried 6 feet under

My peace 

My love

My bliss

Holding our last vow

Do not disturb this poisonous kiss

Access Granted

I wish I could unlock your phone
Access it all
Attain the code
To search the numbers
Names unknown
Interested
Stupid
Why should I even be looking
Trusting
Mistrusting
Former lusting
I wonder what's hidden
It's so forbidden
Im curious though
As the messages load
Please send more red flags
It's beginning to help me figure it out
I want you
I lost you
Im completely and utterly
Engulfed in you

Shopping for Love

Shopping for the perfect mate

Discounted happiness

Sub pare dates

Excuses for excessive buying

Just because it's a sale item

Not putting in full effort

Basics mismatched

A wallet of hurt

Can't return

Final sale

Lies exposed

Another fictitious tale

In debt 

Beginning to steal

Caught for shoplifting

Trapped in jail

Sent to get clean

Each week a new meeting

Told everyone I will stop

Raising my bar 

Being enough

An array of sales sent to my way

Testing the waters 

Of course I will play

Relapsing into my old ways