Nittygritty

It's such a shame 

How people waste their name 

The pain they experience

Doesn't shape them 

It makes them diminish

Using something to drown it out

Not even trying to figure it out

Instead I chose a blade

Cut so many times just to bleed

I didn't want to numb myself

Loading my veins into a comatose 

I chose deal with it 

Every pain I experienced it

Only to have a sharp wing of a butterfly

To cut me open and let me cry 

We all deal with things so different

It's life we either love it hate it or leave it 

09/21/15

This
This feeling thats unbearable
The emptiness never leaving
No matter what
We are all a meaning
I wondered today why you were taken away
Closed my eyes
Wished you good bye
The tears weren't forced
The sob untouched
I still can't describe this feeling
The earth stands still
The sun is always clear
We have had tremendous days
Death thats arising
Our hearts darkness blinding
A whistle in the distance
I don't want to live without you
No wonder people say
Love lives on
How could it stop even when you are gone
Memories and photos keep you alive
Sometimes I forget that you died
Thats okay I accept
Ill cherish the time I was left 
Never forget your contagious smile
Just to remember your only gone for a little while

Show Time

The lights behind your eyes
Your passion is my paradise
I become filled with oxytocin
Breathing out my oxygen
Taking in your every oxide
Love burning like peroxide
Then that capture
When our eyes lock
Those seconds after
Your hand grasps my skin
Pulling my blood from within
Releasing me back down to rest
After those seconds left
The fire we made
The burn in the core
My body your personal guitar
Those seconds pass
Then the grasp
It happens once more
A final kiss
Ends the show
But I'm begging for an encore

09/19/15

I'm sorry for what occurred 

When I was a drunken slur

That's something that I can't change

I wish I could take away

Everyday that you stay

I'll try n make it up my way

By showing you my love is true

Never letting you turn blue

I will deal with all you give

Because you looked right through 

You're the first one to ever chance it

Trust me your heart is safe

I'll never let it break 

You are my precious jewel

Something I give my all too

So please when you feel the pain

Remember I'll keep it away

Family

I hear all that you say

I see the sadness u hide

Every night as I pray 

I get flashbacks and cry

A family is all you have 

But what if your families bad

We stumble in and out of bars

Trying to drown out the scars

I've never fully understood

Why you were how you were

But we don't know what it's like

To sit and have a laugh at night 

It was the first time we got along

Very close after you read my song

Sometimes u wish for a different life

But I cherish everything that's not right

We all have been through this shit 

But we came out stronger in our clique 

Brother n sister bonds are the best

We became closer even after all the tests 

Our first collab

You are my heaven

You are my hell

Anything with out you

Isn't real

The good and the bad

The best and the worst

You are my soul

The wholeness of whole

You are the curse

The wings of a crow

From shadow to shadow 

Exposing the shallow

Wait till night to take me there

Not sure if I'm ready 

Feeling unprepared 

I am your weakness 

You are the cure

The sweetest of secrets

That I adore 

I am your first pick 

Ill make you bleed

Im like your first fix 

Now I'm all that you need 

Classic

Okay looks
What does it mean to be pretty
How is beautiful defined
We create a solid line
That line is only created by humans
What so you think each eye sees the same
You think that each person has the same view
Pretty, Hot, Beautiful
It can't be defined with a solid line
It all reverts back to your own insecurity
It all reverts back to what you need to feel better
Most need to demolish a soul
Others need to find what they don't have
It won't make you look better
You are You
No matter what no one can be you
The more you change the less you stay classic
More success could be brought to you by your view
So use your eyes to see
The beauty you have
The one within
View how you are
Not what you think your suppose to be