Aftermath

I wish you the best 

But my heart is no longer dressed

Feeding my loyalty to myself

Learning the grief of oneself

Do I deserve this constant misery

To drown my soul into deep commisery

Hating you is one of my deepest desires

But I'll never put out my hearts fire 

Loving you destroyed my morals 

Buried my soul

And demolished my standards 

Rules

A few things I've been told 

To keep your rose from going old

Keep the fighting clean

Try not to be mean

Keep your sex dirty

And you'll last past thirty

All I want is our love to last

Not to be just a past

Our love to ripen into maturity 

To live on into perpetuity 

Carousal

Limp and defenseless,

Body restless

This I do attest.

To only suffer

With one true lover 

Is death nevertheless.

And to him I submit with raw affection

Stripping me down to mere perfection

Only to wonder with apprehension 

What may happen next. 

Painless infliction, leather constriction 

Saddens with me predetermined affliction 

Only to find out my darkest addiction

Is not in fact him, but you.

So to him I digress,

And to you I confess

Burning desires I do posses,

Formidable infinite regress,

I revel in the untrue.

Written by: Rachel

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Re-written: My best friends' rad!

Absorbing into my pale skin

Sunscreen applied thin

Happy to be alive and well

Sun burning like the gates of hell

Warm and relaxing to say the least

Day dreaming in these spring leaves

A wide brimmed hat to hide my face

New bathing suit trimmed with lace

I hold my breath as I dive in

The cold water feels like pins

My heart pounding, calmly beating

All in a moment fleeting

By: Rachel 

Sunshine

Absorbing into my pale complexion

With sunscreen on it's the only exception 

So happy to be alive n well

Even tho I'm burning like hell

It's relaxing to say the least

To day dream in these brown leaves 

A hat to hide my makeupless face

And a new bathing suit with lace

The perfect combination

Mixed with the best weather in the nation 

I hold my breath and jump in

The cold water feels like pins

This is such a refreshing feeling

My old self is finally peeling 

My dearest

I can't let you go until I have to

I feel like you feel the same way

Like you said anything could happen 

It won't make it easier to quit

It won't make it easier to stay

But we can always find a happy medium 

If we are meant to be it will be

I want you to be able to talk to me 

And always hold the key

But if u end up finding someone new

Then we just change our love stew 

Until then I love you more

And I want your heart to bleed...to pour

Xo

Morning ramble

So here I am one more time

Another shot chased with a lime

Only my voice slurring your name 

You look at me with the most shame

I can't take this any longer 

My eyes begin to wonder

Why did you make me feel this way

What bad karma do I have to pay

Another shot taken 

The end in the making 

I know what I'll do

Is murder you too

Tell you I love you

And leave without a clue

No longer hearing from me

Your soul bleeding from thee

And then we will be even

And I won't look at you another evenin