Night-terror

I grabbed my stomach screaming

How do I hurt when I'm dreaming

Waking up in a cold sweat

Turning over onto my stuffed pet

I can't believe I lost him in my dreams

I looked around and let out a scream

Is this what happens next in life

Waiting for my heart to be sliced with a knife 

Was it a dream of all dreams

Or a real life scheme 

A tear rolls off my cheek 

I lay down to weep

Stop it I say I'm to young for these fears

quit it as I wipe away my last tear 

I turned on the light 

To kiss you goodnight

Just to realize my fright

was the truth it was right 

Ends

Death

It's so unknown but happens daily

Why are we so afraid but live so freely 

The pain and sorrows we gain 

When a loved one no longer has pain

They are released into some place above

And we grip on to any lasting love

The smiles take weeks to come back

Happiness is something we begin to lack

Grasping around the knowledge of gone

our lives are stuck in sad songs

Now everything becomes a memory

Because you are lost in eternity

Until it's my time to die

I will live with this pain and try not to cry

Because I know your smiling wherever you may be

It's just hard to live on without you, you see 

Friday 3/7

Friday night we rushed you in 

Keeping me from a night of sin

I watched as the chills took you over

Squeezing you into the range rover

They asked for your birth date

Which made you have no wait

Checking all your vitals

Hoping the grim reaper isn't your rival

Trying to find a good vein

 Waiting for the blood to pour like rain

Finally finding a crazy infection 

Admitting you in for further inspection

So many pokes beneath your skin

It's hard on us to take this in

You look at us with sorrowed eyes

Which made me lay my head n cry

Get well they say 

So with that I pray

Pages of this book

What am I doing here

All my thoughts tend to disappear

I am seriously so finished 

But when I try to leave I diminish 

Please wrap your arms around me

Use your eyes to help me see

What you've done to help thee

All I remember is the dark

So try to leave a better mark

Respect respect respect

But actually go fuck yourself 

No other way could my thoughts change

So close the book on this blank 

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