Internal

I am collapsing

Internally my organs are bursting

When nerves consume my intestines

My immune system weakens

Constantly sick

Sick to my stomach

Turmoil within

Creating short wind

The trouble of moving

Or even getting up

My bones crack and shake

Movings too tough

The chills take me over

The layers add on

Not wanting to eat

Spread out like butchered meat

Closing my eyes 

I feel pure paradise

As if my dreams are better than real life
As days end

The sun always rises
Maybe this feeling
Will soon capsize 

Dark Heart

You stabbed me

Straight in the heart

The bloody residue

All over the walls

I stand there and stare 

Looking in the mirror

Wondering if that hole is really there

The red pulsing organ 

Moving and flailing on the ground below

The blood pouring out the vessels

Looks so much like snow

Never have I wondered 

If the feeling is true

Its hard to catch my breath

Not because of you

I still can't believe 

My vulnerability 

The way my body opened up to you

Armor off

All brand new

What happened with that

The feelings took over

But then just like that

The blade went straight in

Clean incision 

The cardiologist's are proud

Another example of love gone bad

Now another heart to examine

Be passed around

The massacre just happened

Why is it that I feel this tragedy

But I can still stand above it

Looking down 

Watching my own heart beat

Without any emotion

I feel nothing 

In the sense of a heart

The place it existed

Just went dark