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I use to cry about losing you 

Worried to be alone 

Scared you would replace me

Thinking death if you were gone 

In reality of all of this 

After the fire burnt out 

My mind was manipulated 

My heart could live without 

It wasn’t love 

Not the type you read as a little girl 

It were the red flags 

Warning signs 

Therapists read from their books

You had me fooled 

A fool for a while 

But now the light has burnt out

I get on my knees and pray 

Thanking God everyday 

That he took you away 

Love me too

Introduce me to your darkest depression

Your deepest cut

Your entire vessel

Let me taste your blood 

Analyze the iron 

Make real 

My deepest desires 

You have no idea 

What you do to me 

The way you stare 

Or kiss my lips 

I feel every pulse 

I memorized your every gulp

Doesn’t matter what you do 

But please

Love me tender 

Love me honest 

Love me too

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The deeper I drown 

Into your thoughts 

The less and less 

I want to wake up 

You’re my prayer 

In the flesh 

My heart connects 

To your cerebral cortex 

It all seems aligned 
How you understand 
My heart with your mind 

I’m going to enjoy 

Your every move 

My heart began beating 

Just for you 

No more you

Can I ask you a question 

Will you help me figure it out 

How we went from death do us part

To your already out

Already in love with someone else

You needing a distraction?

Can’t work on yourself 

I was hoping my intuition was wrong

But you simply fooled me that long 

I’m sad I’m hurt 

But I’m not damaged or broken 

The weird thing about loving you

I wasn’t inlove with you 

You were able to mess with my head and emotions

Making me feel so worthless 

Needing so much help 

I felt the severity of the pain 

As you accused and ended things that day

The biggest thing I tend to leave out 

Was our love was pouring 

Front two very different spouts 

I loved you and meant it 

You loved me and lied 

Trying to push me down

Take away my internal light 

Each and every move was strategized 

I can’t  believe I trusted anything out of your mouth 

I loved you it’s true 

But it’s the love I thought I knew 

Now that I’m centered

Safe and complete 

I will only bring in what’s meant for me 

Respecting and loving myself was a must 

I finally got rid of the last bit of “you” dust

picture painting

I felt you engulf my heart

Spitting it out

All over the walls

I felt you break apart my bones

Wearing them as a crown 

On your damaged throne 

I felt you cut out my tongue 

Trying to speak in a softer tone 

I felt my blood wipe across your face

Your sweat and tears you embrace 

Introductions

You’re like a dream

Every movie

Every novel

Every poem

Short story 

It describes you

It portrays you 

You dropped into my life

Subtle yet explosive 

You left an indent 

Yet we barely talk 

It’s okay though

Loving you from afar 

It’s better that way 

So when I continue to fall

I fall for the person I think you are

And that person never breaks my heart 

A Toast

I love you 

It’s what you both share

It’s the common denominator

Nothing can separate

After your hearts collided 

It became single minded 

Beating and pulsing 

Synchronized 

A beautiful symphony 

A hit song 

Everyone can relate 

It’s what we all search for 

True love

The love when you see it

You feel it

The smiles and laughter 

The next chapter 

I can’t wait to see what 

You two have in store

A family a life 

Everything you dream of

The happiness people pay for 

An everlasting I do 

Into eternity

For the both of you