Internal

I am collapsing

Internally my organs are bursting

When nerves consume my intestines

My immune system weakens

Constantly sick

Sick to my stomach

Turmoil within

Creating short wind

The trouble of moving

Or even getting up

My bones crack and shake

Movings too tough

The chills take me over

The layers add on

Not wanting to eat

Spread out like butchered meat

Closing my eyes 

I feel pure paradise

As if my dreams are better than real life
As days end

The sun always rises
Maybe this feeling
Will soon capsize 

Dark Heart

You stabbed me

Straight in the heart

The bloody residue

All over the walls

I stand there and stare 

Looking in the mirror

Wondering if that hole is really there

The red pulsing organ 

Moving and flailing on the ground below

The blood pouring out the vessels

Looks so much like snow

Never have I wondered 

If the feeling is true

Its hard to catch my breath

Not because of you

I still can't believe 

My vulnerability 

The way my body opened up to you

Armor off

All brand new

What happened with that

The feelings took over

But then just like that

The blade went straight in

Clean incision 

The cardiologist's are proud

Another example of love gone bad

Now another heart to examine

Be passed around

The massacre just happened

Why is it that I feel this tragedy

But I can still stand above it

Looking down 

Watching my own heart beat

Without any emotion

I feel nothing 

In the sense of a heart

The place it existed

Just went dark

Time

Sitting in a hammock
Thinking of time
Time in which my body didn't have these wrinkles
Time in which my past wasn't a black cloud
Time
Time passes everyone by
It doesn't wait for you
It doesn't care if you need a little longer
It keeps going
Solely aware of its own self
It isn't aware that you need to get up for work
It isn't aware that you need to go to sleep
It just rolls along
Never skipping a beat
Never forgetting to get the sun up
Or put the moon down for rest
It has aged me in ways I wish to remember
It has aged me in ways I wish to forget
I will always love my sweet time
It will be the one thing I let slip between my fingertips each day
The one thing I can never make up
Where does time go
I want to play