11/22/17

I want to go back in time 

Before everything changed

I’m stuck in this past memory

I don’t want it to fade

This pain that penetrates 

Deep in my soul 

Won’t seem to let up 

Won’t seem to let go 

I can’t even sleep 

Eating is hard 

My heart is shattered

Stepped on the shards 

Please wake me up 

This is a horrible dream 

Right now I can barely breath

Wondering what you’re doing 

Puts me in a darkness

I can’t get out of 

Please come back 

I gave you all

 Loving you was my greatest downfall

Dark Heart

You stabbed me

Straight in the heart

The bloody residue

All over the walls

I stand there and stare 

Looking in the mirror

Wondering if that hole is really there

The red pulsing organ 

Moving and flailing on the ground below

The blood pouring out the vessels

Looks so much like snow

Never have I wondered 

If the feeling is true

Its hard to catch my breath

Not because of you

I still can't believe 

My vulnerability 

The way my body opened up to you

Armor off

All brand new

What happened with that

The feelings took over

But then just like that

The blade went straight in

Clean incision 

The cardiologist's are proud

Another example of love gone bad

Now another heart to examine

Be passed around

The massacre just happened

Why is it that I feel this tragedy

But I can still stand above it

Looking down 

Watching my own heart beat

Without any emotion

I feel nothing 

In the sense of a heart

The place it existed

Just went dark

Dead roses

I've been meaning to say

Our love has died in the storm today

No amount of flowers could bring it back

And I don't have the time for that

I get your sad but please move on

I can't keep tellin you the reasons we are done

You'll find the girl for you I swear

But please let me be in these future years 

Maybe one day when you don't see me as evil

We can sit down and watch clips of evil keneval 

I wish that I didn't have to lose you as a friend

But your heart hasn't decided that our love is at it's end

Your so amazing and don't take what I say too hard

But when ur given a deck you choose the best card