Last cry

Three letters

You 

That was all that corrupted me

It was all that gave me sanity

You 

A broken heart

Left to walk among this earth apart

You created this 

You ended this

Why would you light this flame

If your intentions weren't the same

Now all that's left are three letters

Three letters that mean nothing anymore 

You do not exist 

I will never look at you

So why do I feel like I could have prevented this

You did this 

It was all 

You 

Your toxic waste

That won't dissipate 

All that's left 

Is the stupid scent

The left overs we just ate 

And a card to tell me I'm not the one

3/23/15

Many nights I lay awake thinking. 

So consumed by my own mind that I forget to fall asleep. 

I wonder things that I cannot answer. 

I wonder why I can't get to sleep.

Sometimes I lie awake and weep

Smiling at sadness laughing at pain. 

My normality slipped away. 

A positive about to drown. 

Thinking different ways around. 

Is it a yes or is it a no. 

This distance tends to grow n grow. 

I'm about at the end of my throne

Grasping my throat giving a moan. 

The darkness taking over us all

Waiting to watch my next fall

Pitch black

I'm in a dark state today

I wish this darkness would go away 

As soon as I close my eyes

What I see is what I feel

Pitch black

Sometimes I look in the mirror

To see nothing clearer 

Everything just turns to black

I don't know how to be happy

Thousands of things go on in my head

Sometimes I wish I was dead

Then a glimmer of hope arises 

Turning this darkness into a beautiful sunrise 

Then I wonder

What if I let it totally consume me

Would I just be

Darkness?

Danger coaster

I believe 

If you truly love 

It'll set you free 

Free of the past

Strike the flame 

Share a laugh

Your only as good

As your darkest day

So strike the flame

Lead the way

Like wind and rain

Love will come in waves

Cherish every minute 

With just a smile

It could be worthwhile

Talking to that stranger 

Putting your heart in danger

Experiencing that wonderful ride  

Awareness

Cut an inch deep

Want to be 6ft under

No ones aware 

These struggles are real

Hoping one day that'll be the last

You won't have to face them in class

Words are the cause

Suicide to escape their flaws 

The bullies who antagonize 

Need to open their eyes

If putting people down 

Helps you sleep

Then maybe you should read

Read the paper about teens death

See your threat in the paper next

Become aware 

Realize 

Nothing lasts forever 

These are all just lies 

What does stick 

Is when you cut an inch thick

Bleeding out till your heart stops 

So the next time

You get hurt by the lies

Remember your greatness 

Smile at the hatred 

Move on with a wonderful glide