Spider minded

Loving me is stressful
You need to know me well
I feel for those who attempt
At the end of the day they fail
Not a time passes that their mind is at ease
A second after my love is a tease
I do understand insects love for another
Especially black widows
They just end up eating eachother
So many times I feel like devouring
Taking his soul with my terrible power
I truly feel for the ones tangled 
My potent pheromones to strangle

I smile at the ones I'll consume

They can never escape my doom 

Dark art

Why must I be so difficult 

Why is there a battle going on 

I can't win

I can't lose

I'm only playing against myself

A part of me is happy

A part of me is sad

When will I distinguish 

The good from the bad

I can't seem to see 

When the glass is half full

The emptiness of the glass

Consumes my skull

I don't get why I battle myself

I'm better than the self destruction

Healthier than the dose of depression 

I'm happy for the most part

But then the darkness comes

It takes on a shadow of beautiful art

The emotions pile on me 

Like oil paints smearing the canvas

But after awhile they all blend

Leaving a dark canvas to tend 

I'm too close now I start to suffer 

I'm pulling you down with me 

When will this battle stop

Because a little while longer 

I won't be sane enough