11/22/17

I want to go back in time 

Before everything changed

I’m stuck in this past memory

I don’t want it to fade

This pain that penetrates 

Deep in my soul 

Won’t seem to let up 

Won’t seem to let go 

I can’t even sleep 

Eating is hard 

My heart is shattered

Stepped on the shards 

Please wake me up 

This is a horrible dream 

Right now I can barely breath

Wondering what you’re doing 

Puts me in a darkness

I can’t get out of 

Please come back 

I gave you all

 Loving you was my greatest downfall

Dark Heart

You stabbed me

Straight in the heart

The bloody residue

All over the walls

I stand there and stare 

Looking in the mirror

Wondering if that hole is really there

The red pulsing organ 

Moving and flailing on the ground below

The blood pouring out the vessels

Looks so much like snow

Never have I wondered 

If the feeling is true

Its hard to catch my breath

Not because of you

I still can't believe 

My vulnerability 

The way my body opened up to you

Armor off

All brand new

What happened with that

The feelings took over

But then just like that

The blade went straight in

Clean incision 

The cardiologist's are proud

Another example of love gone bad

Now another heart to examine

Be passed around

The massacre just happened

Why is it that I feel this tragedy

But I can still stand above it

Looking down 

Watching my own heart beat

Without any emotion

I feel nothing 

In the sense of a heart

The place it existed

Just went dark

Another Sleep

My Nights consist of restless sleep

Tossing and turning with continuing weep

Our last conversation that we shared

Left me hopeless and impaired

Another tear falls out my eye

How could I believe your every lie

Saying we were happy was a must

The last thing I wanted was to lose your trust

I'm covered in your viscous scars

As if I battled the roman Mars

To say our story ended well

Would be saying we wanted to live in hell

I look at you with a blank stare

Because to me your no longer there

Endless Tragedy

Your eyes are such a deep blue

Like the ocean floor I crave you

Noone around to hold my breath

I jump into your body's depth

Our passionate desire

Turns into a rapid fire

Burning down our massive shields

Being lit as fast as dry fields

Our passion is coming to a stop

Now its fighting and taring up

Cups are thrown at all directions

I now look for that stable protection

It's sad to say our love is lost

But a heart is such a deadly toss

Picking up the shattered glass

My heart is torn out at last

Stomping it to the ground

No wonder I cant make a sound

Ill try and mend myself whole

But this doesn't help my broken soul

I walk away with out a glance

I will never give you another chance

Imaginary Love

Remember being younger

With that fairy tale hunger

I want the ending like in those stories

Making memories as royalties

Hoping for a fairy god mother

To get rid of those loser lovers

I'm finished with kissing frogs

I want one to turn into god

To sweep me off my feet

Like belle in beauty and the beast

Ill be wearing my earned gown

Accepting my diamond crown

Hopeless romantic

Boy will it be fantastic

To meet your one true love